Any undertaking should begin with a distinct statement of purpose; unfortunately in the process of typing this sentence I have completely negated the possibility of that. Maybe there's a sense of why I've decided to try writing a blog in that negation though. I've found myself with a lack of direction and an inability to keep my thoughts under control, a skill I've trained over the course of time. Lately I've had some success with keeping a private journal to document my thoughts and ideas, so I feel like keeping a weblog might be another way to try to help organize my mind, or at least make myself look like an ass on the internet.
Let me take a step back. I'm a writer, or I aspire to be at least. For me it's not about getting published or letting people read my writing or even getting some kind of message out. Writing is a visceral process for me, something that can't be fulfilled by just typing on a keyboard. I take notes and do most of my writing on graph paper. This probably sounds crazy, but I find it frustrating to try to gather my thoughts in the process of typing. Physically interacting with the paper helps spur my creativity; it helps me find the words that some way or another belongs.
One of my biggest problems with writing is that I have fragments in my head or things to write, but I get hung up on the individual words. I'm a perfectionist about every word that I set down. That's a bad quality, by the way. Prewriting is an important stage in the writing process that I just can't seem to get a grip on. Rough draft isn't great either. What I know is that writing is important to me and I want to be able to control my thoughts better.
Statement of purpose...right. Gotta' get that down. Remember what they taught us in Elemetary School "Language Arts"? TAPF! Topic, Audience, Purpose, Form. Topic...uh...pass. Audience...uh...pass. Purpose...shit...back to this again. Pass. Form...prose. Paragraphs. 1 out of 4 isn't bad, right? Well, maybe I'll write some poetry or narrative or drama. Form...uh...pass. Topic...the stuff on my mind; that at least is certain.
Back to purpose...damn. Let's talk about that next time.